Let’s have little bit of Body Positivity!

Once I start committing to loosing weight and changing my body, I am perhaps not surprisingly then more likely to notice the flaws I want to change.

This is really getting me down at the moment, especially because the mirror in my room reflects me as I sit slumped over my desk, with all my flaws emphasised as my tummy sits in my lap in a neat roll or two.

But you know what, I may not like my tummy, but I have a great bum! It’s one of my favourite bits of my body, so today, as I was sitting feeling pretty horrible about the body I walk around in, I decided to celebrate my yummy curvy bum, to remind myself that actually, sometimes you just have to focus on the good bits.

So without further ado, here is my lovely bum, showcased in all it’s glory by my skinny jeans!


Yes to curves. Yes to body positivity and YES to pear shaped women with thick thighs, wide hips and great bums! 🍐🍑

I feel better already!

Until next time,

Dani x

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Who am I?!

This weekend, I have had the chance to realise how lucky I am.

Cravings for sugar reached an absolute low point on Saturday night, and resulted in me being totally objectionable and unreasonable to my incredibly forgiving boyfriend.

This situation went a little something like this:

9.30pm We agree to have fish and chips for dinner as a treat, and out he goes to get them. 

10pm He hasn’t come back yet and it’s only down the road. Where is he? Hope he’s ok….

10.10 Phone call –  Me: ‘Where are you? Did you get lost or something!?’

Him: ‘Chip shop was out of everything, so I’m at Tesco getting alternatives.’

Me: Snarky comments and putting the phone down.

10.30 He comes home and I am in  an inexplicable sulk that I cannot shake.

We commence to have an argument where I am totally unfair and demand he leave me alone.

I proceed to sulk for half an hour, before I text him:


Looking back on it, I’m shocked and amazed. No ‘Well you should be’ or anything like it. 

Just love and forgiveness and cuddles. I am truly blessed.

I’m really hoping the crankiness will start to disappear in the coming week, and all the benefits of the sugar free life will start to make themselves known. One thing I’ve already noticed is how much my sense of taste has improved – I’m experiencing new depths of flavour out of everyday foods like baked beans.

But overall, currently it’s a bit of a grind. I did manage to drag myself out of a “run” (if you can call the stubble-jog-walk I did that) but it was boring and painful and hard work. 

Never mind. I’ll keep at it and hope for the best!

Until next time,

Dani x

Danger! Danger!

Right now I am dealing with two types of danger – firstly my horrendous bad mood. It’s been here since Monday evening, so I’m hoping it’s the sugar withdrawal, otherwise I fear I’m slowly but surely regressing to cave-woman status.

The second one is the danger of editing software. On a whim, I downloaded a free app called ‘Plastic Surgery Simulator Lite’ to try it out on my ‘before photos.’ I thought that having an idea about what I could look like if I stuck with the programme would help motivate me. It didn’t. 


Instead, it was depressing. I created that image in about 2 minutes, and although the editing is a bid dodgy, basic and you can clearly tell it’s been photoshopped, nevertheless, I was shocked at the result.

Far from inspiring me, it instead filled me with sadness about how far from that edited image I was. How long it would take me to get there. 

I almost immediately started paying more attention to the flaws I had so carefully wiped away on the image.

It is perhaps telling that I made that image and intended to blog about it 3 days ago, but it’s taken me this long to feel ok about doing so.

I cannot believe how available apps to do this sort of thing are. Anyone, with any sort of mental state or impression about their body can now radically alter what it looks like. I genuinely feel that is dangerous. 

The other issue with such apps is that photoshop used to be the preserve of magazines and advertisements, but now, anyone can do it. So those girls who I follow on Instagram as ‘ #bodygoals ‘ might not even be walking around with the bodies I admire! 

Hmmm…Food for thought….

Until next time,

Dani x

Cake-shaped challenges…

So today was my first day back at uni after committing to going sugar free. It was also the first time I went food shopping.

Let me tell you something, if you had asked me a week ago whether the biscuit aisle was hard to ignore, I’d have said ‘Um…no?’ And looked at you as if you were slightly crazy. But today! Oh Lordy – I can honestly say I’ve never noticed the sheer variety of yummy sugary discs on offer.  The only defence I could come up with was to walk down that particular aisle at break neck speed with eyes firmly locked to the front.

And that was not my only brush with temptation today. Meeting a friend for coffee introduced me to the fact that the campus coffee shop has seriously stepped up its cake game recently. I mean, are you kidding me?!


3 types of cake, muffins, yum-yums, crossiant AND doughnuts?! Jeez, you’re killing me here!

Nevertheless, I stayed strong (if having a slice of pizza instead of cake counts as staying strong…?)

Temptation: 0 Will-power: 1

Until next time,

Dani x

Sunday Run Day!

Let me start by saying I HATE running! I suck at it. Being able to only run for about 5 minutes before I am convinced I’m going to have a heart attack is humiliating. My thighs and belly object to the bouncing jiggling motion that occurs as I try to move at a half decent pace.

BUT! It is one of the fastest ways to burn calories (and therefore fat) so I am committed to getting up on Sunday mornings, throwing on my trainers and going for a run- walk along the local canal. Eventually I’m hoping to be able to just run it.


I’m actually really proud of myself today. Last week I went with my boyfriend,  who is fit and loves running. It’s so much easier to keep going and push yourself when someone else is encouraging you. (As it happens, his particular motivational style comes in the form of singing 80’s hits like “The Final Countdown” to keep me going….)

Today, I went by myself, and it sucked so much more than last week. But nevertheless, I did it! Yay!

It wouldn’t look impressive to anyone else watching, but it’s still a step in the right direction for me. (Follow my instagram (link on at the top of the homepage) for more about my exploits.)

Until next time,

Dani x

Stopping Sugar; Shopping for Shoes.

Last Tuesday, I was chatting to a friend about how she had cut out sugar in a bid to reverse the steady decent in to death-by-cookies that a history degree initiates.

“I was utterly foul for the first week, and I dreamt about biscuits, but now I feel great and I don’t even miss it.”

This wasn’t the first time I’d heard about sugar withdrawal and the amazing health benefits which followed it. Having watched ‘Sugar Free Farm’ (where celebrities go cold turkey on sugar for a month) I have to admit I was intrigued. So I decided to join her.

 Within days I had given up sugar and spent £60 on a new pair of trainers so I can commit to my “Sunday Run Days.” I hadn’t worked out for a while, and my old ones were knackered!

I plan to stay off of all refined/processed sugar until Easter: biscuits, cake, chocolate, sugar in my tea.

From there, we shall see but I’m hoping to only have sugar as a treat on rare occasions. I’m still allowing myself fruit juice, yogurts and jam though – I need this to be something I can stick with!

I’m feeling ok for now, but I’m bracing myself for the grumpy side effects from the sugar withdrawal.

Let’s do this!

Until next time,

Dani x

Welcome to my story

Hello, my name is Dani.

That picture on the right? That used to be me:

August 2012, almost 20 years old, 104kg/230lbs/16.3 stone, unfit and unhappy.

That photo was what prompted me to change my life. With the help of a doctor and lots of hard work, over the next 2 and a bit year, I lost around around 30kg/66lbs/4.7stone, until I looked like this:

arms-in-jeans    skinny

 

But then, I took my eye off the ball, and a combination of university life, and being happy in a new relationship saw me slowly but steadily gain weight.

Now it’s February 2017, I am 24 years old, I weigh approximately 95kgs/209lbs/14.9stone, and it’s time to do something about it.

So I am inviting you to join me as I get back on the wagon, tackling my weight gain and making the changes I dream about seeing in my body into a reality.

I hope that by writing this blog, and knowing you guys are watching, I will be able to stick to my guns and make the necessary changes, whilst also creating a log of my progress to date.

Until next time,

Bye!

Dani xx